Lucidity

by Colin Corde


Idiopathic means 
they don’t know the cause. 
Not knowing the cause means 
they don’t know how to cure it. 

Dad told us this would be the last 
time we could see Crunch. 
This would be the last 
time that he could see Crunch. 

Aunt Angela said 
I’m his spitting image. 
She takes us around the house 
like it’s a museum. We see 
pictures of a young boy. 
He looked happy. 

When we saw him in the basement
he was in a morphine coma. 
“It’s to make the pain go away.” 

“Hey, Crunch, if you sleep any longer 
you’re going to end up like me,” my 
cousin, Tyler, joked. 
Crunch mumbled a response 
between “Damnit” and 
“you know what...?” 

Dad leaned in close. 
“It’s your son, Crunch.” 
After fighting against frailty, 
he mouthed 
“I love you.” 
Whatever pain the morphine took away 
flooded back through his expression. 

“Hope to see you again soon.” 
Those were the words I uttered, 
while ushered out the door. 
The last thing I said to him. 

How stupid.



Colin Corde is currently a senior at Ramapo College. He is pursuing a Bachelor’s Degree in English and Literary Studies with a concentration in Creative Writing. He writes often in his free time, mostly sticking to different genres of fiction. After graduating, Colin intends to teach English abroad in various countries. He dreams of someday becoming a best-selling author. Other than writing, Colin spends his time backpacking and making music with his band, TheBandLunch.